Pavi

10:21 am: True story. A religion teacher assigned her class an essay on what makes a good christian. One student wrote about praying nightly, say no to abortion, banning gay marriage, and donating money. The other student wrote about talking to God and allowing people to enjoy their lives, and supporting gay marriage. The day the teacher was to hand the papers back, she called up the second student and told him she would pray for him when he went to hell. The student asked why would he be going to hell, and why he got an F on his paper. The teacher told him that Catholicism is against gay marriage. The student looked at her for a minute, then said aloud, "I'm gay." The teacher kicked him out of class as if he had said "fuck" or worshiped Satan. A girl in the back of class who had a boyfriend and was obviously straight got up and left too. If you would leave the classroom, repost this. It doesn't matter if you're straight, bi, or gay. It doesn't matter if you're Catholic or not. Everyone is a human being and deserves happiness.

10:28 pm:

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01:36 pm: My heart goes out to all the people affected by the bombings in London. It's so weird to think that just about two months ago I was riding the Underground through those very same stops.

12:15 pm: I can't believe I haven't written in here in over two months. I had a great time in India with my family. I was sad to leave behind everyone (especially my adorable nephew). It was refreshing after last semester but now everything is just so different. The people this semester are all so different and there are so many things that have changed. It feels weird to come back here and not have all the comforts of last semester...we barely know any of the new people. And this semester it seems that we actually know more of the guys than the girls which is a weird feeling. I'm trying not to get back into the pattern of falling for a guy at school because last semester there was just too much wrong with that. I'm having a great time with the girls though. I mostly just hang out with some of the girls from last semester who are back and just a few of the new girls which is pretty cool. I've definitely had some crazy experiences this semester and I've only been here for a month. I love that we're all so comfortable around each other that we can all spend the day together and not want to kill each other. The craze at the moment seems to be marathons of Sex and the City which I'm absolutely loving. We totally relate to those girls and it's been so much fun just hanging out at night watching episodes and having girl talk. School is already so busy which is very different from last semester but in a way it's good because then it feels like there's always something to do.

10:52 pm: STUPID LJ HAS LOST MY POST TWICE AND I'M TOO FUCKING TIRED TO WRITE IT ALL OUT AGAIN!!

12:17 am: So happy for LotR!! I love that it was a clean sweep!! This is it...this is the end of the story. But what a way to go...they ended it with a bang!:D

03:36 pm: Is it time to go home yet?!
Today has actually gone by quicker than I thought it would cause it's already 3:30 so I only have an hour and a half left. Knowing this area though everyone will be getting off work at the same time so the traffic should be delightful (note the sarcasm dripping from my voice). It's amazing that I can be so attracted to the city life yet hate everything about the commute. I guess it doesn't help that all around D.C. it's the 'burbs so we get used to our cozy little neighborhoods and shopping centers and then we're forced to drive in the city.

So there's another intern who came in today and she's really nice so I'm happy that I finally have someone to talk to. We went on a little tour of the building/campus today with the Chair from the Near East/Africa section. He was really nice and he answered all our questions about being a Foreign Service Officer. It's something that I would do except that I'm scared of being posted in a remote area of the world. If I did decide to become an FSO I would really try to focus on Europe because I wouldn't mind being posted in one of the European countries. The other intern and I were talking about how we wouldn't want to be married or have kids if we were going to be an FSO especially not for the first post because it would be hard to uproot your kids to a place that maybe wasn't that nice.

I think now that there's someone else here to talk to and work with it's probably going to be better. We both have our orientation next Monday and Tuesday...not looking forward to taking the Metro into D.C. on a workday. I felt so much better this morning when I met her and then found out that she hadn't gone through orientation either. But actually her Security Clearance hasn't gone through either so she's still waiting for all that.

It's my mommy's birthday today so I wanted to take her out tonight but someone's coming over so we probably won't be able to go out until tomorrow night. I still want to give her her present but since it's from all of us I want to wait until we're all together. Aliya I will definitely tell my mom that you helped me pick it out. She'll probably laugh when I tell her it was the same day that I got the shoes because I don't think she understood why I was out shopping for shoes that day.;) I didn't tell her we were going to the mall or anything.

Okay I write these huge ass novels whenever I write in this journal...my life is so dull that I can blab on for hours.

10:32 pm: What is with this week?!
Okay so I'm a little relieved to find out that I'm not the only one having the shitiest (word?) week ever. I'm also really sorry for everyone who is having a bad week...lets just hope the weekend can cure whatever this is. At the rate I'm going May just seems like the furthest thing away right now. I'm just looking forward to March right now so I can get out of here and go to CO.

So Aliya and I were talking about this and what is it about thinking you're doing the right thing only to find out later that maybe it wasn't the right thing at all. I know why I decided to do the internship this semester but now that I'm there I keep thinking that it would have been better if I had just stayed in school and taken more classes. Night classes and waking up at 6am has gotten me down to the point where any little thing to get out of it is welcome. I thought this was what I wanted but now that I'm here I wish I had never done anything. Being an overachiever sucks sometimes.

Classes finally seem to have worked themselves out. I was so sad tonight when I had to go to my 7:20 class. I don't know what possessed me to take a night class on a Thursday. It's bio so as usual it put me to sleep but the professor posts her notes online so if I give it enough time I'll just stop going to class. I'm trying to make my schedule for London right now so I can mail it to them and damn it if the classes aren't all at the same time. I just don't have the patience to deal with this right now so I'm gonna go to bed and hope that Friday and my mommy's birthday makes the day better.:-/

10:06 am: Soooo Tired....
It's only the second day of the semester and I already feel like killing myself...and not in a "I want to work my ass off and get good grades" kinda kill myself. *lol* If this whole internship orientation thing hadn't gotten fucked up then I would feel so much better about the whole situation. As if life isn't already complicated enough I then find out I'm in the wrong Spanish class but the one that I should be taking is already filled up. I now have to go talk to the professor and beg her to let me force add into her class. I was checking the site for my London program and it seems that they've changed some of their classes around so now I have to go and change what classes I want to take. Shit how could life get so complicated in one day...Jan. 19th was so relaxing and Jan. 20th was pure hell.

At least my government professor was really cool yesterday...he seriously made my day. So it seems that he used to live in England and actually taught at the University of Reading where I would have gone if I had gone through the Mason program. He's also a huge fan of the England football team and he was talking about how he wanted to set up a World Cup of sorts for Conflict Resolution purposes. We ended up watching this very funny video about a Sri Lankan girl who moves to Canada and everyone makes fun of her bindi...all the Indians in the class got a kick out of it including me. But I think the best part of the class came when he played out the entire plot of Bend it like Beckham to the class because he thought it was a great movie and dealt with Conflict Resolution.

So I don't know if I'm happy or mad that I missed the State of the Union address last night. I did try to listen to the Democrats' Response but the Minority Leader of the House just bothered me so I couldn't watch it...how can anything sound so rehearsed when Bush had just finished his speech five minutes previous. Caught some of the newscasts this morning and I think most of the Democrats still oppose Bush's decision to go to war, as do I. I would have given anything to see Edward Kennedy's response to Bush's speech which I heard involved a lot of eye rolling. I'm a little scared of what could happen in Nov. 2004 because war is not the only issue we have to worry about right now.

03:00 pm:

Stole this from Em...

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03:15 pm: Four weeks went by way too quickly!!
I can't believe school starts tomorrow along with my internship. I feel totally unprepared. When I opened my email today and saw that first syllabus staring back at me I just wanted to run away and hide. I have no idea how four weeks went by so quickly. One second I was waiting for Dec. 16th to get here as quick as possible and now it's already Jan. 20th and I can't handle it.

So it seems that paying $300 for books just isn't enough because now I have to go back to the bookstore for another book. I don't know when I'll find time to do this but at least I won't need it for a while.

Well for everyone starting school tomorrow...GOOD LUCK!!! Lets hope the nice weather arrives soon so we can spend our days outside and this will hopefully make the semester go by sooner.

04:28 pm: I'd like to think the best of me is still hiding up my sleeve.
Wow so it's been such a lazy day for me. All I did today was go meet the guy from the State Department this morning which took about 30 mins. He called at around 10 a.m. to tell me that he was on his way to Fairfax and instead of going and getting ready I decided to sit around watching Alias. So it took him about a half an hour to get here (I hate NOVA traffic cause it's so unpredictable) and I of course wasn't ready yet. I went to meet him and get this, he actually treated me to coffee. *lol* The meeting was fine and it really was routine.

I feel bad about the fact that I vegged out in front of the tv today cause it was so beautiful outside. I can't believe it was in the fifties today when yesterday it didn't get past thirty degrees. Damn this mid-Atlantic weather...it should be hot all the time. I was talking to my mom about going to Law School in Boston and she said I must be out of my mind cause it's so cold up there. *lmao* And of course knowing my mom I'll get there and she'll be right and I'll want to come home.

I think I finally figured out what's been pissing me off lately. It's all these damn high schoolers who are stressed about college. I know I used to be one of them but I was never this bad. I don't think anyone realizes that 10 years from now nobody is going to be asking us where we went to undergrad. Hell no one asks me now where I went to high school or what my SAT scores were or anything. I just wish people would stop freaking out about things that will naturally happen. If they have good grades and good test scores then what the hell are they so worried about. And then of course here I am already worried about Law School but not about getting in but just about where I want to go. But I figure once the time comes I'll figure shit out just like I did when it came to going to college. I've come to realize that I really don't care about things like school and stuff...it's just a phase in our life that's almost over and soon we'll be moving on and worrying about other things.

06:57 pm: It's when you cry just a little but you laugh in the middle that you've made it
Okay so Becky and Theresa left today for school which now marks the end of winter break. I now have a week to sit around and be depressed before it's time to get my ass in gear for this semester. I was thinking about London today and I swear I just want to get there. It's all coming together finally cause the other night Becky and I were sitting there talking about it with her dad and it was so surreal. *lol*

Had to go to a birthday party today and everyone kept asking me when I was leaving for London like I was leaving tomorrow or something. I wish they'd stop reminding me that I still have about 7 months until I go. I really wish I could just go today cause I really need a change from all this. There's just too many things that are getting to me lately and I'm not sure if I want to deal with them or not. I think the problem is that I'm too sensitive so everything gets to me even though I know they shouldn't.

Eagerly awaiting the new episode of Alias which starts in two hours. I've become obsessed with those DVDs and now I really can't wait for season 3 to come out on DVD. For all you Alias fans out there...WE NEED MORE SARK!!! I was watching the season finale of Season 2 last night and when the fake Francie kissed Sark I seriously threw something at the TV. *lmao* I need some help here but more than likely I just need to get a life.

06:52 pm: Be so happy with the way you are. Be so happy that you made it this far.

I can't believe I only have a week of break left before it's back to the grind.  I can't complain though cause this break has been great.  I hung out with all the important people I had to hang out with and I saw people that I had lost touch with.  I can't wait until March so I can go visit Becky in CO.  She got her information for London so now we just have to turn in the forms and we'll be ready to go.  I would just like to forget about all the forms and everything and just go.

On Monday I'm supposed to meet this guy from the State Department so he can interview me about my Security Clearance stuff.  I don't understand the point of him interviewing me if I've already been cleared.  Oh well he said it was going to be pretty routine and we're meeting in Starbucks so I get my coffee fix so I really shouldn't complain.  I swear nothing in life matters as long as I get my coffee everyday. *lol*

The snow today was so great.  I woke up to a beautiful, white day and spent the day inside with a cup of hot chocolate and watched a few movies.  By the time I had to go outside the snow had melted so there was no problem driving.  It better start snowing more because we need tons of snow days this semester.

I just remembered that my mom's birthday is in two weeks and I have to go out and get her present.  I know I want to get her some sort of jewelry but I'm not sure what yet.  Aliya if you're reading this, I think it's time for another trip to the mall.;)  I'll totally give you half the credit for the present if you go with me...you know you wanna.

I tried to live my life and live it so well
But when it's all over is it heaven or is it hell
I better be happy now that no one can tell, nobody knows
I'm gonna be happy with the way that I am
I'm gonna be happy with all that I stand for
I'm gonna be happy now because the boy's going home.

04:01 pm: It's been a good day!
Just hanging out at work right now since there's nothing for me to do. I can't believe the amount of good things that have been happening lately. Now I know why I get so depressed everytime school starts again. The breaks always remind me of why I miss my high school friends so much. I spent half the day with Becky today just talking about London and such and I'm so happy. I swear I don't know how we're gonna get any work done next year when all we do is talk constantly. I guess it's a good thing that only the credits transfer back and not the actual grades. *lol* I never knew I could sit around for four hours discussing everything and nothing with someone...and it seems like it's always like that. I love that we've both decided to go to law school together cause it makes me feel better to know that someone else will be going through the same thing as me.

I talked to Theresa for 2 hours last night and that girl makes me realize that some friendships can withstand a lot. I hadn't talked to her that much during the semester because we were both really busy but it was like nothing had changed. I love that we understand each other so well even though we never talk anymore. She understood my whole problem with being a "backup" friend. We were talking about how we hate it when people say things they don't mean. I just don't get why people say things to make it seem like you're so important when in reality they probably don't mean them at all. Oh well I told myself there wouldn't be any more drama in my life and I'm holding to that. There's too much bad crap going on lately for me to add on to it.

My internship coordinator finally called me back and told me that my Security Clearance had gone through and now I just have to set up my internship dates. She also told me I could take the week of Spring Break off so now I can actually go visit Becky. I'm so excited cause this is the only year I can go and visit her and I also need something to look forward to since London is so far off.

09:41 am: I can't believe Becky's dad actually agreed to let her go to London for a year. I actually feel excited about going again. There was too much stress about the whole thing for a while and I just got sick of worrying about everything. I just wish I could skip Spring semester and go straight to the summer. Chances are I'll be too busy to do anything but focus on school. I just can't believe that this time next year I'll be in India with my family and getting ready to go back to London instead of Mason. My parents seem to be really cool about me studying abroad which amazes me because these were the same parents who wouldn't let me go out with friends alone until I was in seventh grade. *lol* I guess they have to start letting go as much as I do since they're all ready to go back to India for good tomorrow if they could. The idea doesn't freak me out as much now as it did when my dad first started talking about it. They've seen to my happiness for 19 years and now it's time for them to do what makes them happy. It's funny because nobody tells you what comes after you've acquired the "American Dream." *rolleyes* Oh well I shouldn't dwell on this now.

So much to do today...must force myself to actually do them.

10:29 am: Happy New Year!
I thought my first post should be on the first day of 2004. Happy New Year to everyone!! I'm not really sure what to talk about since life is pretty normal at the moment...for once. I can't believe school's gonna start in 20 days. I feel totally unprepared for this semester because I'm trying so hard not to think about it. I'm really excited about my internship but at the same time I don't know how I'm going to make it. The only thing I've learned over winter break is that I can't work 40 hour weeks. I just want to be a bum...I'm good at that.

I have a craving to go see RotK today. But then again I always have a craving to go see LotR. I'll probably just end up bumming around my house all day because that's what I've been doing for the past two weeks. Oh well hopefully I'll find something to do today that doesn't involve watching Season 2 of Alias. I really need to stop watching those DVDs every spare moment I have. Oh well once the semester starts I won't have time to do anything so I guess I better just enjoy it while I can.